I got hired for a seasonal job this last week after no one getting back to me for 9 months.. my parents, my nail lady, and my friends are all very happy even if it is only part time. I had to go to the training yesterday, but I had an appointment with this therapist I've been been seeing a couple hours before that. I kind of hate her. I don't think I want to see her again.   She no-showed me last week and I told her this week that that really pissed me off. I also told her I had finally gotten a job and I had the training that day. Going to heavily paraphrase, but we mainly ended up talking about doing nails as a career, since she was staring at my nails the entire duration of the appointment. I didn't want to talk about nails since I thought the other things I had this week were more important. She asked why I don't do that if I went to school for it. My main thing is still that I don't want to waste Lilly's time. I know what it takes, even to start, like work...

 Had a stalker for over a year. Only really came out in full around the 9th. Julie had warned me about her near the end of this last year, saying she was obsessed with me and that I should keep an eye out for her since it sounded more like a stalker kind of obsession as opposed to the ones I have for my own friends. Honestly, I think the only reason I managed to not be so freaked out by this girl is because of how Julie'd originally described her to me; as being seemingly infatuated with me, and that she would ask people about me; so I wasn't really 'put off' by her in the way that (after having seen how much she'd said) I honestly should have been. I think if I hadn't been told this last year, that seeing those messages 2 days before doing anything about it publicly would've been more difficult.   To be honest, I didn't find sharing all of it difficult at all, instead I found it incredibly irritating. I had originally posted what I'd said to her in...

 hi family, this is probably the coolest and most special thing I'll ever blog about to be honest ( ^ ⁠ω⁠ ^ )/!! Sometime last month one of my new friends, Hailey, was in Japan and was able to go to Commitia, which from my understanding is like an artists swap meet, that my friends Aira and Mäh were gonna be selling at :D!!  She was able to get quite a few things from both of them and she also went to Mäh's graduation exhibit, which you've probably seen on insta. It's ' Mäh's Princess Room ', if you haven't seen the pics, you totally gotta check it out :-3.  Mäh's Twitter Post (⁠◡⁠ ⁠ω⁠ ⁠◡⁠) Mäh's Insta Post (^ ⁠ω⁠ ^)  But Hailey sent my stuff to Sarina (thank you Hailey 😸🙏🩷!!!), and then Sarina sent it to me. It showed up today and she wrote me a note lolol.  I forgive you (⁠◡⁠ ⁠ω⁠ ⁠◡⁠)🙏。。  I also thought it was funny that she wrote the first and middle of my government name on the box and not my last name at all LOLOL!!...

 hiii family :-3, I'd seen on insta some time ago about a nyew brand in the making and their old MA*RS inspired set that'd be coming out late February. I was saauur excited :-3。。I put 100$ aside for when it'd eventually release since the price wasn't stated anywhere before it was available to buy. Good thing I did, cus it was 75 USD, around 86 with tax. But I wore it the day I got it since I wanted to have first opinion teehee (⁠◡⁠ ⁠ω⁠ ⁠◡⁠)。。!! nyew set 😋 everyone seemed to like the other picture more 🤔 but I thought it was ugly (⁠◡⁠ ⁠ω⁠ ⁠◡⁠)! I like this one best 🙂‍↕️!!  To start, I think the purchasing process was easy. You buy through Etsy, and both pieces are sold together, so you don't have to worry about just the top or just the skirt being sold out. Another thing I liked was that you get to choose the size for each piece. I got an xs in the top and a small for the skirt, and they fit like a standard MA*RS set. I know some people online had said th...

 Just had my appointment with my psychologist. She's upped the dosage on my mood stabilizer and I have to take it at night now. She also wants me to take my adhd med only on the days I work now too. I'm really worried I won't remember to take my mood stabilizer, cause I've been taking them both together every morning, and I've been consistent with it for about a month now. And it took around 3 months to get to that point :(.  I also can't really get her to understand that feeling 'nothing' is better than how "energized" I've felt the last month, and better than when I was angry all the time. Cause feeling nothing, I don't have to experience either, I can just go about my day.  I ended up crying during the appointment cause I don't know how to explain that to someone. She'd asked if the mood stabilizer was working, and I said I didn't know, I thought so cause I wasn't mad anymore, but that it was still worse than feeling ...

  wuddup family. my fucking car got wrecked today. mother and I were driving to the swap meet so I could get a la pafait style bear charm for my digi camera and so she could get her coworker a couple of rings. we were literally turning left onto the street the building was on, and the back passenger side of my car got hit. I thought we were gonna hit the 2 gentlemen head on cus they had their turn signal on and it was a one way street; thankfully they were trying to get to the gas station just through the intersection, and only hit the back of my car. regardless, I'm pissed because that's my fucking car and I wasn't even the one to have caused the accident.   both tires were cockeyed and the bumper was barely hanging on. I'm so fucking mad.  ma sent me in to the swap meet cus it's 110 degrees fahrenheit here, and she called our neighbor asking if she could get us cus the car had to be towed. our neighbor said she'd pick us up, but said if no one was injured, the...

   Hi family 😺, I had a doctor's appointment earlier today and got some.... good?... ok, like it's good to have an answer, but technically bad, news. I had spoken with my psychologist lady and she said I for sure have some form of bipolar disorder based on my own experiences I've described to her, and my family history of it. As a result, she wants to up the dosage of the mood stabilizer I've been taking; she wanted to make sure I was consistent in taking it first before prescribing a more effective dosage, which makes sense, cus I have ADHD and forming (important) habits can be difficult. So I'm gonna meet with her again in a month and hopefully around that time my mood will be less feeling worthless & having Dennis Reynolds confidence at the same time, and more straightened out.   I've been waking up early everyday for the last like, months or two, and even though I'm still physically tired I can't go back to sleep. And I have more energy/will to ...