I've been having many many thoughts again and haven't made a thoughts blog post in a while. Methinks it's time for one again. As always, all are only half formed and barely coherent.  I haven't felt 'right' doing gal for a while and I don't know why. I like all my clothes and wigs and stuff, but I feel very disconnected. Like. both from other people and myself. I don't really know how to explain it. Posting doesn't feel right. It's not been fun all month. I don't know how to explain it.. but I haven't been feeling like myself all month. I feel like I need to dress like a douche or a boy again for a while. I still like all my MA*RS and wigs, but it hasn't felt like me, especially the last few days.  Recently, I feel as though my clothes, hair, and makeup are wearing me. I feel like none of it is me, but I don't know who I feel like. I've had this type of feeling before, but nowhere near as extreme as how it is this time. Methi

 Hi family, yesterday was my 20th birthday :0. My mom took the day off work so we could go do stuff.  I had wanted to go to the swap meet to get more of the La♡Pafait style bear charms, but they're closed during the week :(. We went to the antique mall instead. I didn't really want to go to be honest. I didn't even really wanna get ready 🫤...  The antique mall didn't have any good porcelain ladies this time. I got a new chunky bracelet for agejo that I wore the rest of the day, and 2 wood bead necklaces for old school.  While we were there I had a lady ask for a picture of me to show her daughter lol 🤭, she said I looked like a doll and had a wonderful style.   Then we went to the Bellagio to see their fall exhibit. The fall exhibit and the new years exhibit are my favorites 🤭... Still wasn't really in the mood, but whatever. I'll share my favorite pics I took there on this post. I posted on the day of with all my pics. Sunflower Fairy & her cottage both

  Today mom and I went to the antique mall and the Bellagio. The antique mall didn't have anything good. We were gonna go to the swap meet but they were closed today.  This years autumn exhibit had a fairy theme, it was cute. I didn't take many pictures of myself. I'm not in the mood for it today. One lady there asked to take a picture with me 😭😭, she was sweet. 

  We went down to Arizona for not even 24 hours lol. Our goal was to get the title for the truck so we can finally sell it.  We took the Corolla so we could listen to music in the dead spots of the desert cus it's the only one with a CD player. I'm a little sick of Hiromi as a result, but I did get to listen to all my new CDs. Hikousen is for sure my favorite of her albums (that I own).   We had to stop before we even really left Nevada. The tire pressure light keeps coming on even though the pressure isn't low 😒. But the light was freaking my mom out, especially since the road there was SO bad. So we stopped and I took some pics on my camera 💪. The tires were fine obviously, I think the sensor is broken like how it was in the Kia. That light NEVER went off, I'm so serious. So we need to have those replaced.   Driving that road at night is scary af! I had my legs tense the entire time ww. At least my make was good :-3. I was the most swag person at McDonald's 💪.