hi family :-3, my nail appointment with Lilly was today 😸. I was there for like 7 hours again.... I'm not even noticing it's been that long while I'm there LOL!! It's not even taking that long cus of the work that's being done either (well, it partly is..) but like, we're discussing everything the whole time cus I have a license, and she lives to teach, it's awesome.   I showed her my dress for new years cus I wanted my nails to look like part of the dress, and I actually had all the same colors that are in the dress :D. So I wanted it to be like, 'color blocked' but in a more watercolor kind of way, and I also wanted some of the old school Japanese nail art elements and I think that's what made it all look more cutesy as opposed to just elegant. I think in the end it turned out looking very Barbie Swan Lake. so cool 😼🙏! I brought Hanni for pictures this time :-3  I think it turned out so badass :-3... I'll probably file down the rose on ...

 hi family, I don't have work again tomorrow, Jessica's baby is really sick 😿, poor baby 💔. and then my checking account .... fuuuuuuuuck.   I've been waking up really late not having work tho, so I tried waking up earlier today. It was still like, 1:30 when I got out of bed, but I've gotten pretty quick with my makeup, so I was completely done getting ready by 3:30 even with watching tv :-3.  I got a nyew shirt off romwe, so I wore that today, and I ended up wearing my black boots instead of my wedges cus it's cold as fuuuck outside family. coord  Anyways, mother and I went to Chinatown Plaza to buy this year's dress for new years. fu dog :-3  I wanted a teal one that I'd seen last year, but they didn't have it again 😿. So I'm having to like, adjust the set colors in my mind. I did find one that I ended up liking tho.  I wanted a long one this year because I wore a short one last year.  I invited Sarina out for new years this year, so I got he...

 hi family.. I got a shirt in the mail yesterday, I was gonna wear it Saturday, but work today got cancelled so I went out instead. coord トップ: Guess ジーンズ: Abercrombie ブーツ: D.D.'s  I also had the idea of doing my hair.. I haven't been happy with how my hair looks for a long time, and keeping it flat is doing me no favors. I got Andrew a hairdryer for Christmas, so I used that today, and I had like, some ( probably expired (⁠◡⁠ ⁠ω⁠ ⁠◡⁠)...) gel under my sink that I thought would give the look I like more. I don't really like the look the leave-in conditioners give. It turned out ok at the start of my day and ended up looking kinda bad by the time I went and took my pictures in Chinatown. whatever ┐⁠(⁠ ⁠˘⁠_⁠˘⁠)⁠┌..  soggy (-⁠ᄒ⁠ᴥ⁠ᄒ⁠-)。。。  same as always, I've been wanting to look more normal.. well, I want to look like the girls in street snaps and like Awirin and stuff. I got a new under eye product, it's the same one that Sarina uses; I got the white on...

 The 27th was the 8 year anniversary of my account. Not Ageha, but the one I'd made just before I moved. The 4th when we left and the 6th how long I've been here. Every year feels worse than the last. I thought it would eventually pass, but it still hasn't. I don't have any connection to my hometown, the people there don't think of me and I have no place there, but I still feel out of place here. I'm not from here and when I go anywhere other than the strip, people can tell. Where do I fit.. I don't have friends here, and the friends I do have online that I've met in person I don't think like me all that much. I feel very out of place with everyone I know. I know it's kind of stupid to say and goes against lots of encouraging/'moral of the story' type messages, but I want to fit in! I want people to like me and think of me and want to spend time with me or talking to me!   I feel like I've become a very different person since having t...

 hi family, I'm not really in the spirit for making posts or talking I guess, but on Friday I went on the rollercoaster at the New Yorker.   There were 2 pictures for this ride, and when we all got off, some people were complaining cus they weren't able to buy or take pictures of either of their pictures; cus you're not allowed to have your phone or nothing on you for the ride, but I zipped my stuff in my jacket pockets before even getting in line so they didn't gaf lolol. I also had 30$ to spend on bullshit, so I bought 1 of my pictures :-3. it turned out too good not to 🙂‍↕️...  When I was walking back to the Aria, you gotta go through the Park MGM, and I came through a different door than I exited, but they had a Lady Gaga exhibit :0..! It was cool as fuck to be honeeeest 😸.  The display cases had color changing lights, so it was kinda difficult to get clear pictures of the outfits, but I did my best 🙂‍↕️。。。 meat dress :-3... I got 1 pic of this in the cle...

 hiii family :-3.... I spent like 3 days going back and forth on whether or not to go see Nosferatu in theater. I didn't want to cus I'm wimpy and I don't like horror movies (I get scared 😿).. on the other hand, everyone online was like, "it's REALLY fucking good" plus, I saw the trailer whilst scrolling twitter and it did look really fucking good.. one thing about me tho, if ads come up, I watch them without sound 😭😭. So because I'm a wimp, I brought my nyew Hanni with me so I could pet the ears and hair throughout the movie lol 😺. I also haven't gone to see a movie in theaters in like 5 years, and I haven't gone to one by myself before, so this was a first :-3.  Anyways, I bought my ticket online after going back and forth for like 3 hours and then I had 1 hour to actually get ready lol. I wanted to do normal makeup cus I thought it'd be quicker, but tbh I think it still looks kinda 2006 Ageha lolol. I also got a nyew shirt :-3.. and I r...