gets 😇🙏
I'd said to Aira sometime a month or 2 ago, when she posted her new pin designs, that I really wanted to buy some; once that months Commitia was held and over, she made a listing for me online to buy the designs I liked best 😸!!
She had a whole bunch of new designs this last month, and she has pins now :-3. I got 1 sticker set of her hime/agejo kuma-chan sisters, and 3 pins, 1 being the hime kuma :-3. The other 2 pins are new designs too :-3.
She included one of her drawings as a bonus and wrote me a note 🥹 I was so happy, I love you Aira 🩷.
I put the note with all my mementos and I want to decorate a frame nicely to put the drawing in. I want it to match the frame Sarina gave me for Christmas. I'm not crafty, but I want to try (◡ ω ◡)..!
I finally managed to find a 20th anniversary MA*RS necklace for sale for less than 300 USD. who cheered? meeee, I did. it was like 80 which is still absurd, but this is legitimately the first I've seen in 3 years listed for less than 100 so. I'll take what I can get. The heart that says MA*RS and 2011 needs like, restitched to the base, but other than that it's in perfect condition. #theirloss
I'd been debating buying the other colorway of Mähs' ribbon bracelet for a bit.. I was able to get my dream MA*RS set earlier this year, and these 2 pieces would work perfect together, so I decided to buy it 😸! I'm so happy 😸, now I can wear either one of her pieces with any of my sets :-3.
Last is soooo exciting :-3... Hanni toys! Hanni toys! I only learned of the big version somewhat recently (◡ ω ◡)... but I knew Mercari Japan would have them 🙏. yaaaayy :-3!
my beautiful toys and gifts aside... I've been having a terrible, awful, depressing month and I've thought about killing myself every single day. nothing to look forward to or smile about. uhhmm. I already overshare personal details of my life on here so, Sarina blocked me some time near the end of June and I won't lie to you family, I was genuinely in tears for a good 2 weeks. I know she's not a confrontational person or anything of the sort so I'm not gonna push or even ask around about what I said or did that was the final straw cus I'm sure it's justified, but she's the last person I'd be genuinely complaining about or posting about in a negative manner so I am still upset cus I really considered her to be my friend. So it sounds really incredibly stupid but I have been very depressed for the whole of July over that one thing. Uh what else. I had already told my mom back in May that I wanted to go to August's HDLA cus it's around my 3 year mark and I really don't want to go now. Like, I still wanna see how everyone's dressed and what's sold, but uhhhhm. I can't show up as a different person. It doesn't work like that. Maybe I'll be incredibly lucky and no one will speak to me and then when I leave I can never speak to anyone online again and also possibly kill myself if the day goes bad enough 🤞😇. one can hope! What really sucks is, I can't tell my mother I don't want to go either, cus she wants to visit San Diego afterwards since she used to live there. I haven't been able to sleep or eat for the last month over this. It's gonna be a great day family, I'm gonna have an excellent happy fun good time, and I'm going to work on both looking and sounding like I'm enjoying my day like my dad says I need to, and I'm going to do an okay job at both! no funny shit, I'm making myself sick over this, it's all I can think about.
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