The 27th was the 8 year anniversary of my account. Not Ageha, but the one I'd made just before I moved. The 4th when we left and the 6th how long I've been here. Every year feels worse than the last. I thought it would eventually pass, but it still hasn't. I don't have any connection to my hometown, the people there don't think of me and I have no place there, but I still feel out of place here. I'm not from here and when I go anywhere other than the strip, people can tell. Where do I fit.. I don't have friends here, and the friends I do have online that I've met in person I don't think like me all that much. I feel very out of place with everyone I know. I know it's kind of stupid to say and goes against lots of encouraging/'moral of the story' type messages, but I want to fit in! I want people to like me and think of me and want to spend time with me or talking to me!   I feel like I've become a very different person since having t...

 hiii family :-3.... I spent like 3 days going back and forth on whether or not to go see Nosferatu in theater. I didn't want to cus I'm wimpy and I don't like horror movies (I get scared 😿).. on the other hand, everyone online was like, "it's REALLY fucking good" plus, I saw the trailer whilst scrolling twitter and it did look really fucking good.. one thing about me tho, if ads come up, I watch them without sound 😭😭. So because I'm a wimp, I brought my nyew Hanni with me so I could pet the ears and hair throughout the movie lol 😺. I also haven't gone to see a movie in theaters in like 5 years, and I haven't gone to one by myself before, so this was a first :-3.  Anyways, I bought my ticket online after going back and forth for like 3 hours and then I had 1 hour to actually get ready lol. I wanted to do normal makeup cus I thought it'd be quicker, but tbh I think it still looks kinda 2006 Ageha lolol. I also got a nyew shirt :-3.. and I r...

 hi family :-3 I had my nail appointment yesterday. I was there for like a billion hours lol, my shit was fucked up. I got to hear Lilly's whole life story tho, that woman's life is a movie; I was trying not to say anything the whole time cus I was gonna cry if I did 😭😭.  But I got my shit totally redone. I feel naked and bald now... and now I literally can't type 😭! I felt bad trying to respond to messages last night, cus I'm trying to write as little as possible so I fuck up less, so, sorry Sarina 😭!  But it was weird to not have total control over the design since I always do my own nails and designs. She said the same thing to me lol!! Most of her clients give her total control over design and everything, so we were having to work together, we were totally on the same page by my 2nd hand tho 😸!!   I had her take pictures with my nyew Minji toy :-3  Everyone is saying my nails are still really long, but I literally can't see it 😭😭!! This is the sh...

 Hi family :-3, long ass day... woke up at 5:30, got back at 12:40, went to bed at 3:30. I can't do that again, it'll kill me for real, no funny shit 😭😭  Anyways, I'm not really in the mood for writing any posts, or at least not detailed how I usually do, so this time I'll only talk about my favorite parts of the day.   My 2 favorite areas were Fantasyland and Toontown so I think that's what I'll post about..  I really liked getting to see the characters and get pictures with them, I didn't really think I'd enjoy that going into it, but I ended up thinking it was really fun. We had also done the greeting the princesses thing, where you get to see 3 in the little corridor thing and take pictures with each one. And that was pretty cool too. After we'd done that we saw Mulan walking around, and she's my favorite, so we also got pictures with her :-3! this one is my favorite picture from the whole trip 😸!  I also really liked all of the architectu...

 hi family, I have this post and Fridays, but I don't actually know how to start this one lol.   Anyways, after spending the night at Sarina's on Wednesday, her grandparents drove us to go pick up Jacey in LA, and then to our hotel :-3. We left at 10(?) and got breakfast at IHOP :-3! idk how long of a drive it was to LA cus I was half asleep lol. Jacey already had her makeup done when we picked her up; Sarina and I were gonna do ours at the hotel since our dinner reservations were later in the evening. 私服 トップ: Guess ジーンズ: D.I.A ブーツ: D.D's ジュエリー: usual gold assortment & Guess  Our check-in was at 3 so we started our makeup soon after while Jacey took a nap (cus she doesn't ever sleep 😠!!!! you need to sleep more!!!) Sarina doing her makeup :-3 hehehe cute 😸  I finished my makeup around 4:20 and we got an Uber over to downtown Disney pretty soon after. We still had quite a lot of time until our dinner reservation so we walked around the shopping center and t...